The Scroll









On May 27th, I was sound asleep and dreaming when it was like I was nudged awake by a friend’s voice saying "and this word is for you".  Along with her voice, I felt a second presence. Then I heard the Holy Spirit say:

"The scroll is being opened."

I started to open my eyes and saw what looked like a trillion tiny scrolls dancing in front of me forming a picture of one scroll.  Eventually they dissolved as I fully woke up.


(For more on that experience, click here.)


I believe that the vision the Lord gave me that day set a new course for my life, and I know that it will never be the same - but I am so thankful for that.  Time is short and there are far too many of God's children fast asleep, just as I was a couple of years ago.  My prayer is that they would wake up before it is too late.  Jesus will return to claim His bride and when He does, there will be no more time for the lost sheep to return to their shepherd.


"Then I saw in the right hand of him who sat on the throne a scroll with writing on both sides and sealed with seven seals.  And I saw a mighty angel proclaiming in a loud voice, “Who is worthy to break the seals and open th scroll?”   Revelation 5:1-2


On June 23rd, 2015 I had a dream that I was trying to read the Bible only the book of Revelation was the first book, not the last which is what it is in the physical.  I had both my iPad and my hard copy Bibles and all of them showed Revelations as the first book.  There was something about the number 9 that was significant.











Dream Interpretation:  I believe the Lord was pointing me to the reality that we have come to the time when the Book of Revelations will come to pass.  9 normally deals with judgement or the finality of things.  Basically it's used when judging man and all his works.  It has also been used to describe the perfect movement of God.

The throne room of God


On May 5th, 2015 I saw Jesus (his full body) for the first time.


I began to pray with my eyes closed and I saw a dark tunnel with a light at the end.  The light was in the shape of a half moon.  I knew I should move closer to it so I did.  As I got closer I could see that it was a cut out in the wall so that what I was seeing was on the other side and was a wall of grey colored stones.


I began to be awakened from sleep in the middle of night to words being repeated such as "tempest" and "shaking".  This was disturbing and caused me to really seek the Lord to be able to regain peace.


On June 29th, 2014 at 9am, I had my first closed VISION that I knew was from the Lord.  (A closed vision is one that you see in your mind's eye, but not your physical eyes.  An open vision is one you see with your physical eyes happening in the physical but it's origin is in the Spiritual realm.)  I was not doing anything particularly "spiritual" at that moment but it just happened.  I saw a picture of three pyramids standing together and then there was a shaking that I could see and the pyramids began to fall.  I didn't know what to do with this information.  I had not mastered the art of asking God questions and listening for answers (nor have I yet!) and so I jumped on Google to figure out if what I had seen was an actual place.  I came across this picture and was pretty excited because this was exactly the view that I had seen although from in my view I was standing further off in the distance and the 4th smaller pyramid in front was not prominent in the vision I had.

I still didn't know what to do with this, if anything.  I thought to myself - what good can come from me knowing this or sharing it?


I began to have very vivid and strange dreams.  Upon waking I would remember every detail.  I had begun keeping a "God Journal" in 2013 and so I would write down the dreams, though I had not been taught yet how to interpret them.  As I write this now in 2016, I am still learning to interpret dreams and believe that it is an important and special way that God communicates with us.  I would encourage anyone to keep a detailed journal of all dreams and take them to the Lord for understanding.

The Fig LeaF


On July 14th, 2015 my 9 year old son was looking in the mirror when he saw a leaf stuck to his head.  He tried to get it off but it didn't budge as he scrubbed it.  Finally it came off and floated around and then disappeared.  (He didn't understand at first but then he realized he was seeing in the spirit.) 

He said that it was about the size of a baseball.  Later I showed him pictures of various leaves and he picked out the Fig Leaf.

I later asked: Lord, what does this mean?  I heard:


"The seasons are changing.  The vine is ripe and the time is now for the great harvest.  The fig tree loses its leaves and they fall to the ground."  


Not long after I read this verse from Matthew, and I began to weep.  I knew from deep within my spirit that what my son witnessed was a confirmation from the Lord of the times we are living in.  At the same time, we have every reason to rejoice for the Great Harvest that is just in front of us, which will usher in the return of Christ to claim His bride!  Let us be about our Father's business!


“Now learn this lesson from the fig tree: As soon as its twigs get tender and its leaves come out, you know that summer is near.  Even so, when you see all these things, you know that it is near, right at the door.  Truly I tell you, this generation will certainly not pass away until all these things have happened.  Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away."   Matthew 24:32-35

Seeing in the Spirit


One of my earliest memories as a young child was of flying around a room in my grandparent's house.  I remember telling people about this and them patting me on the head and saying "Isn't that nice." - I knew they didn't believe me, and eventually I stopped believing that it happened.  But now, having seen what I have as an adult, I know that it really happened to me.  God delights in answering the prayers of His little children, and their hearts are just open to receive and believe.


Seeing in the Spiritual realm is now pretty common for me.  I believe this is because I have been relentless in my pursuit of this "gift" and God has been gracious with me.  I want to see what God is doing so that I can know what I am to do.  Jesus said that He only did what He saw His Father doing.  I believe this is an important pursuit.


On Dec. 13th, 2014 in the middle of the night my 3 year old crawled in bed with us.  He was very frightened and discontented.  It took him quite a while to settle down.  I had been deeply asleep so I was barely able to open my eyes, but the little that I did, when I looked at him I saw swirling red and yellow "filaments" all around his head.  I asked God what it was and I heard "attack".












In the morning, I asked him about what he was feeling the night before and he told me that there was a bad angel in his room and his whole room was moving.  I couldn't get much more of an explanation out of him when I tried, but that was enough for me.  It is common for children to have what is called "Night Terrors".  I used to disregard this, but now I know that children are really being tormented as they sleep by demons.  As parents, we must use the authority we have been given to pray protection over them.  Every night before my children go to bed now I pray that the angels would come to protect them as they sleep.  We've prayed over every room in the house and anointed each room with oil.  And, if you don't think it matters what kids watch on TV, you are wrong.  Demonic entities can and do come into your house in this way to cause chaos and harm.


Yes, there are really demons.  No, they cannot really harm you.  They've only got a bark, and no bite.


"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."

Ephesians 6:12


I do not consider myself an expert on seeing in the Spirit, but hopefully in reading my timeline of experiences, you are encouraged that you can make a lot of progress in a short time too.  If you are interested in developing this gift, I would encourage you to read the book "The Veil" by Blake Healy.  He never knew a time when he didn't see in the Spirit.  Now he travels around the country teaching others to do the same.  I believe that we are living at a time when the Lord desires to pour out His gifts in HUGE measure for His purposes.  For more on the Gifts of the Spirit, please read 1 Corinthians 12.


The church denomination that I was raised in and still attend does not believe in the gifts of the Spirit for today.  Well... I've got news for them.  Just because someone does not BELIEVE in what God says and does, does NOT mean that He stops doing it.  What God has done in my life and the life of my children in the last two years is proof enough for me that the GIFTS are alive to be used in the Body of Christ, not for our purposes, but for God's alone.  It is all for His glory!

November 23rd, 2014:


"Trust the truth.  I’ve given you eyes to see the darkness and the light.  My son is the king eternal.  What once was a blood line, is now a soul line.  Your soul is connected to my son.  I expect pureness of heart.  I expect full obedience to my word.  Child of the one true God.  If thou desires to hear my covenant, you must spend time with me, and not just a free moment here and there but your days deeply tuned to me.  I desire to speak through you to the lost.  I have equipped you with conviction but you must first learn what it is to humble yourself and be broken, except from me.  Not just words but truth.  I call you only to truth.  Come to me in that dark place, a place that is absent of light, so that I can fully fill it with my light.  Do not fear.  I am your protector.  You must see the torment to be able to preach about it.  It will not do for a second hand account."

 I am but a wife, and a mother - a person desiring to be fully given over to the Lord and His purposes.   There is nothing special about me, apart from God.  The truth is that He desires to do a profound work in every one of His children, setting them free from the chains of this world and into the DESTINY He has for each one. 


I am well educated and a professional in my field, however, I see now that performance and worldly gain is not where my value is derived.  I grew up going to church but fell away in my late teens and twenties.  It wasn't until I hit my own personal rock bottom of loneliness that I turned back again to the faith of my childhood.  Of course, the Lord was waiting with open arms, having never stopped protecting and providing for me, despite my selfishness and pride.  I began going to church again and even started reading my Bible.  However, there was something hollow about my actions, and the lack of real fruit in my life was evidence of that.  To be quite honest, until the age of 36, I'm not sure I even had a "relationship" with Jesus.  Of course, He knew me.  I just didn't really know Him or have any real idea of the purpose of this life that I had been given.  That all began to change when I encountered the Holy Spirit for the first time, while crying out in grief and despair in October of 2013.  


  What follows are highlights, some quite supernatural, from the journey I've been on since that day with the God of the universe.  My prayer is that my story may somehow inspire you or help you to be able to believe for greater spiritual blessings in your life.  I've come to understand that there is nothing in this world that holds me anymore.  I live to know my Savior better and to grow closer to His heart.  God has amazing things for each of His children, better than we could ask or imagine!

the holy spirit is the best teacher ever

When I was first learning to hear God's voice, He would put a Bible verse in my head, though I had no idea what it would say.  He sent me to the verse above on 12.27.13 and I believed the words held a promise for me.


In January, 2014 the Lord led me to a ministry called One Whole Heart.  It was through this ministry that I began to really hear God's voice through the power of the Holy Spirit, where I received healing from a lifetime of hurts, and where the first prophetic words were spoken over me.  I was encouraged to listen to Mark Virkler's CD's on the 4 Keys to Hearing God's Voice which I highly recommend.


In March, during a church service, I heard the Lord tell me that I was to surrender my life's work to Him.  He said that He would write my story and that it would be better than anything I could ever imagine.







BECOMING A WATCHMAN

On February 14th, 2015 I had a very vivid dream that I knew was from the Lord.  In the dream, I pulled a big pearl hair clip out of a my hair and it had goo on it like nacho cheese.  Then I had things in my right ear that needed to come out.  The first thing I picked out of my ear was a small slimy minnow.  The next thing that was pulled out was a big dangly gold earring. 


Using a Christian dream book I was able to determine the interpretation of the dream.  (Now I know that we can also do this just by praying the Lord and asking Him to give the interpretation.)


The pearl (hair clip) symbolizes something rare and admirable, a treasure of the human soul for which Jesus paid the ultimate price.  Because it was all "gooey", I believe that was showing the "work in progress" that I am in the Lord.  I have not yet attained the measure of what He has for me!  The minnow represents evangelism for men's souls.  Gold represents God's divine nature, His glory and the precious treasure of faith.  An earring symbolizes a gifted ability to hear in the realm of the Spirit, a prophetic gift of a bondservant.  


For me, this dream was incredibly encouraging.  I think of it often when I become discouraged in the trials of this life.  

Hearing God's voice and yielding to his will

November 17th, 2014:


"Trust in me, the giver and protector of life.  You are my child and I call you by name.  Not even a hair on your head will be harmed.  Your story is written in the book of life and I call you to wear a white robe of purity.  You are made holy in the blood of Christ.  War will rage around you but you will be at peace.  Death and destruction are coming and there is nothing that can be done about it.  Yet here am I.  Call to me and I Will answer your call.  You are children of peace and hope.  You hear my voice as I call to my sheep." 

On April 5th, 2015 during Easter service that morning, I heard God speak to me "I am doing a work in you." After I heard this, I felt like the music faded away and became farther away.  I went to my knees to worship.  My lips felt strange and seemed to be moving on their own but I was not making any noise.  It was like I could partially discern what was going on around me in the physical, but not fully.  And I could also feel something going on in the spiritual but not fully.  I remember thinking and saying to God, I surrender.  I wanted him to take me fully away from the physical so that I could fully experience the spiritual.  This did not happen though.  Eventually, I came back to the physical and the song ended.


"Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."  Philippians 1:6


Later that day I was listening to a teaching by Bruce Allen where he referenced 1 Kings 17 which speaks of the work the Lord did in  Elijah's life so that he could achieve the destiny the Lord had for him.  I am in no way comparing myself to Elijah, but I do know that the Lord has a destiny for each of us and desires to do the work in us that we may achieve His purposes.​​

Hearing the Voice of God

The first time the Lord began to speak to me about things that were coming upon the world was on June 19th, 2014.  This is what I heard:


"Calmly persevere.  The end is near but has already been choreographed.  The finale is predetermined.  You don’t know how you will get there and with that uncertainty comes fear.  Know that your safety and that of those that you love is promised, not in this life but in the next.  Choose to be a bright light to others.  Get your house in order."


How do I do that Lord? 

"It is not by money.  Things of this world pass away.  Things of me are everlasting.  Focus your eyes on me.  Trust in the hand that leads you.  Trust in me with all your heart and mind and being.  Yes, you need me, and more and more.  The days ahead are not easy but they are needed to get my people where they need to go in me.  Not apart from me, but within me."

"I have posted watchmen on your walls, Jerusalem; they will never be silent day or night."  Isaiah 62:6

On 11.1.14 I awoke in the middle of the night and felt like both my hands were on FIRE.  The room was abnormally dark but I had extreme clarity of vision in that moment.  I felt a strong presence that I was beginning to recognize as the Holy Spirit.

On October 21st, 2014 I heard this word of instruction: (for the full word click here)


" You put boundaries around things that don’t exist.  Be free of this world, of it’s clock, and of the expectations that come from the Babylonian system.  I created each soul, even those that belong to Babel.  They choose money over me, and they will spend eternity wrapped in torment.  My children say no.  My children say I am their father and they follow me, even to the ends of the earth.   I call and they hear me.  The truth is that great despair is coming upon the earth.  No man will be able to stand when the very earth shakes.  Every building built by man will crumble.  Only those men that cling to me will be able to get back up.  I will pick them up and they will come into the air with me, to meet my son, to hold his hand to be welcomed into eternity."

My children have all experienced the supernatural move of God from having prophetic dreams, to seeing open visions which included even smelling and feeling things such as heat and smoke.  One of my kids has gone to heaven (in his spirit) many times.  He speaks to Jesus at least on a weekly basis - and this is just normal for him.  I believe this is what God intends be NORMAL for each of us.  That does not mean that he is a perfect child.  He is just as awnry as any and makes mistakes that must be corrected and forgiven, just like every child.  

Later that same week, while at work reading scripture that I felt the Lord directed me to read, I heard Him say to me, "You are to quit your job."  Well, that word sent me and my husband for a loop!

(Typically, I do not hear the Lord audibly.  This "hearing" comes up from my heart into my mind but I know that it doesn't originate with me.)​  I asked the Lord for a confirmation and He sent me to Daniel 4:14.  This convicted me in helping me to see that I was trying to be my own provider through striving.  I am NOT suggesting that anyone else must quit their job, but this was instruction God gave to me personally.  It took us about 9 months to get situated so that I could do this obediently.


Around that same time, I heard this clear word from the Lord as encouragement and instruction:


"Slow down.  Breathe.  I will meet all your needs, and then some!  It doesn’t have to be as hard as you are making it.  You can’t get this wrong.  You are seeking me and I will direct you, your every action if you desire it.  Thank you for inviting me to that deep special place that exists only for you and I.  The more you yield to me, the greater the vision will become, and the clearer it will become.  There is nothing hidden from you.  I desire you to understand and trust in the path I have set forth.  No fear, no worry."


Over the months to come, the Holy Spirit would speak to me and give me very specific instructions to go to a certain place, or to look for a certain person, or call an unknown phone number.  I believe that He was teaching me to follow Him, to surrender my will for His will.  In all honesty, I got it wrong a lot.  Sometimes I was too embarrassed to go up to person He was pointing me too and I would let the opportunity pass me by.  But, God was and is faithful and always creates a new opportunity for obedience.  There was a whole lot of flesh that needed to die in me to make room for the Spirit.


My children began to see spiritual things in the physical realm.  In one specific occurrence, my 4 year old came into our bedroom a bit scared and crawled in with me.  He told me that God and Jesus were just in his bedroom and then the white light went out the front door.  He would settle down and then all of a sudden sit up and ask "when the builder in the backyard was going to be done".  I asked him what the "builder" looked like and he said that he was big and wearing purple.  I believe this was an angel that he was continuing to see in the spiritual realm.

Pyramids of Giza, in Egypt near the Red Sea

In November of 2015, I felt the Lord released me to begin sharing the words, visions, and dreams He had given me.  My greatest desire for this life used to be that the Lord would say to me when I died "Well done good and faithful servant."  I thought that was the best I could hope for, a life well lived.  Now, I believe with all my heart that God has so much more for me, and every person alive today.  Heaven is coming to this earth... and each of us have a choice to be a part of what God is doing in this life right now.  Now, I know that I can hear the Lord, and feel the Lord, and even see and feel the Lord - even in this life.  I now can proclaim that "I KNOW Jesus!" and He is not only my Savior, but also my best friend.


I pray that my testimony would be an encouragement to you.  He loves you and created you for a PURPOSE.  Seek Him and you will find Him.  Quiet yourself and listen, and He will answer you and help you to walk with Him in the DESTINY He has for you!

This is what God the Lord says—
the Creator of the heavens, who stretches them out,
    who spreads out the earth with all that springs from it,
    who gives breath to its people,
    and life to those who walk on it:
“I, the Lord, have called you in righteousness;
    I will take hold of your hand.
I will keep you and will make you
    to be a covenant for the people
    and a light for the Gentiles,
to open eyes that are blind,
    to free captives from prison
    and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness.

Isaiah 42:5-7

As I went through the opening and looked to the left the room became very bright white.  I knew there were thousands of angels in the room. One came up to me and handed me something.  I couldn't see her clearly because she was too bright white.  She said it was armor and the Angels were making armor for all Gods children.  She helped me to put on the pants.  Then she handed me boot covers, then a robe that had a clasp around my neck, then gloves.  Lastly she put a headpiece on my head.


 This made me weep because it was so touching to me.  Then Jesus came to me from over to the right and he took my hand. I saw all of him.  This was the first time that I had seen more than just his torso or is eye.  I never got to see his face so clearly.  He was the expected size and appearance glowing in white around the edges.  He was wearing a robe with a tan colored sash.  He led me ahead and then it was like we jumped to a different place.  There I saw a throne of the brightest white.  It was huge and I could only see the base.  Jesus sat with me at the base of it and we worshipped God together.

Scroll and Fig Leaf

The Covenant











Beginning in late January of 2015, the Lord began to speak to me about Covenant - like, a lot!  I had an ongoing closed vision with an angel who was holding back water (which was later shown to be provision) and who handed me a suit case with a scroll inside.  Written on the scroll was the word "Covenant" in fancy cursive writing.  At one point in the vision, I ate the scroll.  I didn't know why I did that!  Sometime later I was led to these verses for greater understanding:


"Then he said to me, “Son of man, eat this scroll I am giving you and fill your stomach with it.” So I ate it, and it tasted as sweet as honey in my mouth."  Ezekiel 3:3


"I took the little scroll from the angel’s hand and ate it. It tasted as sweet as honey in my mouth, but when I had eaten it, my stomach turned sour."  Revelation 10:10


(For the full transcript of the words I received regarding Covenant, click here.)


I believe the Lord was calling me into covenant with Him.  I've learned that this is not something to take lightly.  He was upfront about the sacrifice that would be required, but every cell in me just wants more of Him and so it was an easy choice to make. 


On May 17th, this is the word from the Lord I received:


"Time is short.  You carry me in your heart.  You are mine and I am yours.  I delight in you child of the one true God.  You are full of my light and my joy.  Release my love to others and you will fulfill my call on your life.  Your mother's heart is growing.  Your servant heart is growing.  The leadership you will need you will have.  I have anointed you to serve me for what is to come.  Do not push away that which I ask you to do and to say.  You are not called to comfort but to sacrifice.  You will be hated for my sake but consider it good that you will experience the reward in the life to come."